Yay, Gong gong and Po Po are visiting! I have to admit that I am just as excited as the kids. Finally, I get a break. I don't have to cook and I get massage therapy on my shoulders. My back is just messed up. Liz is getting heavier and I am too tired everyday. Although I smell like Bengay every night, I truly appreciate the massage.
James is in Seattle till Sunday. I can't imagine to be alone with the kids for 5 days. I'm just so glad that my parents came! My saviors indeed.
Sometimes I wonder why I go through so much work and pain every day, taking care of the kids on my own. I could have sent them to the daycare (not that I don't love them!) or get a babysitter or get a cleaning service for the house. I was complaining to James one day. I told him that I am a stupid woman. Instead of enjoying life, I was stressed out and worn out every single day and he was not even helping me! I fell into a very depressing mood for a few weeks. I was brooding over negative thoughts and self pitying state of mind. And I couldn't snap out of it. I was so afraid that I would soon become a bitter old lady! Can you see how depressed I was? I felt like running away but then I couldn't, you know, I can't just leave the kids. I don't need anyone to relief me of my work, sometimes I want someone to sympathize with me. A lot of times, James is very out of touch, too consumed with his work that he neglects everything that happens at home (except the kids!). It is very frustrating! I wish I have a job, so that I get to interact with more people, have more self confidence and self appreciation, more positive and be more social! I think staying at home so much drives me to the wall!
Alright, enough said. I am just so glad that I am out of the dark side. Happy and sound again.
We got David a new car seat, the Britax Frontier. David loves it. It looks very cool too. Now we can pass the Roundabout to Liz. Britax makes very comfortable car seats.
David is very spoiled now that the grandparents are here. He wants to be held a lot of times. He just hangs around gong gong and po po all day. He becomes a baby again. I want to spend more time alone with him now that the grandparents are here. We went to this Toddler Tango class today, just me and David. He had a good time though shy at first. It's time for him to converse in English more, get ready for his preschool in September.
Elizabeth is getting bigger. She knows how to say Ab-ba, for daddy in Korean. She's working on Mama. She crawls every where. She likes to go to the mall. She loves Pottery Barn Kids because it's nice and colorful. I can't wait to buy her the cooking set, the tea set and dolls so I can play with her. I can't wait to buy her those colorful cute bedding set when she's bigger! It's fun to have a girl.
i hear you, sis!!
glad that you are happy now~